Something good

I had my 3 month assessment today. Almost 6 inches gone since September 8. That's a good thing...right?

At least there's one good thing in life. Mum's doing...well doing. Last week she had stopped drinking anything - but dad has been making her drink water. So for the first time in her life she's actually drinking water. Right now it's about 1/2 a cup to a cup a day, but it's better than nothing. She has a nurse and a home care working coming in 3 times a week to help her do simple things like taking a shower. I can't imagine how hard this must be for her to require someone to come and help her into a shower.

I called her this afternoon and all she said was "No". She didn't want to hold the phone or talk. Dad said she's stopped talking. I know the end is near, but I wish there was a countdown that would allow us to know exactly how much time we have left - but I guess no one ever knows.

I eat a full bar of Lindt milk chocolate this evening. It was great. I don't feel guilty about it - but I am blogging about it. I wonder what that really says about the state of my guilt. Ha..ha..ha..

We'll it's 10:26pm, and I am up at 5:33am - so off to listen to a podcast book called Heaven by Mur Lafferty.

Have a good night

rakhi