I'm so angry that I can't seem to get my body to work. There is a lady at work who has only started to eat differently and I just heard a colleague say to her that she looks amazing and that her pants are falling off. Why can't that be me???? What am I doing wrong.
I am eating within my calories (around 1700) and I'm working out 3-5x a week. Two weight training sessions with my PT and running around 3-4x a week. I'm starting week four today, so 5 mins warm up - followed by 5x 4mins jogging and 1 mins walking. I am so angry that I'm not seeing the results. I know that stress is a factor in weight gain or weight retention, but I don't know if I'm stressed.
I guess with me just writing that I don't know if I'm stressed, then I must be stressed - ha..ha. It's like this vicious cycle. I am off all my meds and starting to do everything right, but since it's not working then I get stressed and don't see results, then get more stressed and then don't see results. UGGGG!!!!!
To top it off, I can't tell if I'm actually stressed about what is going on with my mum and just taking it out in the weight loss non-success. Yesterday was a bad day for her. I hadn't called since Friday. Saturday was really busy with cleaning and then we had some people over, then yesterday we took the kids to swimming lessons and then spent hours cleaning out our library. My dad called in the evening and made me feel so sad and guilty for not calling. Am I just avoiding calling 'cause I don't know what to say? Am I actually in denial and just fooling myself to think that I'm not???
Well today is another day, and I'm going to try not to let comments make me feel inadequate. I have a paycheque, and a loving family.
Have a healthy day, and I hope to complete day one of week three today.
Rakhi
1 comments:
Sometimes all we can do is breathe and know that we did it. Try not to be hard on yourself about both your mom and the weight. Deep breath.
Gym Jenn
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