On my way home

I am sitting in business class on via rail right now typing this entry. Man gotta' love free wi-fi.. oh and business class.

I'm on my way to my folks to spend a few days with my mum alone. Everyone else is following on Friday and we'll be back Sunday.

I was able to move the dr's appointment for my mum from Monday Oct 31 to tomorrow (Thursday). I'm really nervous, as this is it. We will find out everything from the biopsy and find out what the prognosis is.

I'm scared. I don't want to be. I want to think about the good things, and that this tumour might only be stage I or stage II, and it not be terminal. But, reality creeps up on me and I can't think that them saying that a star shaped (or defused) tumour can not be good. A family friend of ours had a brain tumour and died about a year after diagnosis.

I just want one year. I just want her and my new niece to celebrate their birthday together. My brother had a baby girl on my mum's birthday. It's ironic that my son was born on my aunt's birthday - who died in 1999, and now my niece is going share my mum's birthday.

I'll post tomorrow after the appointment.

Rakhi