nevin is now taking 3-8 steps at a time...he's not officially a walker - but he's getting there...i am having issues again today...i don't know why i can't stop this, but maybe it's the same thing that others are going through, it would be nice to know i'm not alone...first nevin doesn't want to nurse too much in the morning, so my breast hurts...i don't want to wear a bra, but i know i have to...otherwise i'll look like the teacher in southpark...i know my weight is up as i'm full, and bloated.. so we'll see what happens tomorrow..
but the whole reason that i'm having "issues" is that a certain sil posted photos from her trip to the south and she's wearing a bikini..man does she look good...i mean you would think that she was a model...i know that things are totally different for me, and that she may look good, but probably couldn't run 10k...but that doesn't mean anything...i want to look like that....i want to wear a bikini - or know that if i wanted to i could and look damn good...i want people to say - you don't look like you have two kids...
i guess i just have to get back on the p90x program...i started week 5 again - yesterday was triceps, shoulders and chest...so lots of push ups and weights...i aslo ran 5k (42min, but i walked the last k)...today is plyometrics...i don't mind it, as long as i have the engery...i will do it...
maybe someone can answer this for me...why do i always have to justify myself...why can't i just be satisfied with saying...i ran 5k last night...why do i have to justify the time...i should be proud of the fact that i did it...but i'm just not...i'm just not happy with that time...UUUUUGGGGGGG
any advice/help would be nice...
2 comments:
so exciting that your little guy is walking!!!!
not sure what to say in terms of advice for not being satisfied with things - it's human nature in some ways. just keep telling yourself that you're making positive changes one day at a time, and eventually, it'll be enough!
roxanne
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